‘I know one thing I know nothing….!’ Socrates
Thin thread like line discerning real from imagination is something I am curiously experiencing since my childhood. Celestial journey of soul to the deep embodied experiences have accompanied me in finding the truth of my voyage. Humans are called ‘Homo-sapiens’ what I find interesting is that the creature which is defined and separated from other creations of God on the basis of conscious mind with all its creativity and wisdom. Dwelling deep in thoughts and going deeper in my body and experiencing soulful experiences with my soul was itself a mysterious way of being in this world. Being an extremely perceptive and deeply connected to energy communication I questioned my sanity since childhood. Till date I am struggling with what is more powerful the five basic senses I have or the call of third eye I listen very profoundly off and on.
Silence is not only my solace but the powerful tool to listen what vibes have to say. What space I go in when silence whispers in my ears I myself cannot put it in words. Words vanish and images arise. Well working for quite a few years in this area. Now I realize it was the depth of my soul calling me to unleash the hidden treasures dusted with layers and layers of ignorance. Treasures of self-awakening knowledge, jewels of unfolded traumas, fears which are haunting from deep darkness all were calling since childhood. I used to experience them in bits and pieces but never really embraced them with openness and vulnerability.
‘Gurus are a paradoxical lot. The very nature of being a guru is that you have followers, which lends itself to intense idealization. And the higher up us are on pedestal, the further the drop when we hit the ground. Most of us are not gurus, of course. We are working therapists, on the front line of profession in private practice or within a mental health system. We work hard and juggle our professional lives against the backdrop of our personal lives, and mostly we manage.’ This simple and beautiful explanation of Marie Adams gave me some energy to feel human while experiencing humanly feelings of shame and inadequacy while working as a therapist. I felt I am not alone in this journey other therapist also struggle with being human as well as therapist where they are sometimes perceived as omnipotent and superhuman.